The sunset

        I can not stand out in any way. Or I am not good for nothing, or have two left hands. Or maybe just do not know how to go about it? I do not know.

Saita no no hana yo(...)

"(...)mou anata kara aisareru koto mo
hitsuyou wo to sareru koto mo nai
soshite watashi wa kou shite hitoribocchi de (...)"

"Inori Song" EGOIST [Guilty Crown]

 Time to face the truth. It always has been, and she wanted to lie. But the reality of it reached. Now wanders in a maze. She wants help, but knows she is doomed to each other. Time to stop living a lie. She is not so strong.

xXx

Village "Pawłowice", Wisła / czerwca 2015

Village "Pawłowice", Wisła / czerwca 2015

blue flowers.

Black&White , Village "Pawłowice", Cornflowers @5 czerwca 2015.

Village "Pawłowice", Cornflowers @5 czerwca 2015.

What can I do

I prefer the "darker" pictures, but I'm not able to do them.

 

"Wisła"5 czerwca2015" Piotrowice.

"Kotka" (znaleziona z młodymi w stodole) 5 czerwca2015" Piotrowice.

My own cursed.

      They reassure me that I'm cursed. Strangers ask "why so sad '. When I look in the mirror, I don't see beauty, I don't  see ugliness. What I see is a sad black eyes. I wear to barge my own frailty. I cannot dump her.

Nobody wants to help me, already "help". Reportedly always I need it.

 

 

 

 

...cut my wings.

I would like to expand, but they cut my wings.

I should go for some creative college, but chose the papers. What a stupid choice. I'm sorry. Although you have to go forward.  Even if I made a wrong move.

The wheat field. The village "Pawlowice" 2014

Let the dark road to begin.

The grim, with no luck and lonely.

Photography of opening "Penny Dreadfull" 

Nothing is as it should be.

I wanted to have a job. When I have it - the remnants takes me strength. Smug on the ground depressed. Without dreams and the desire to do anything. Work is killing me. They require from me that I would have had 4 hands, and maybe even 6? Is this job is for me? If not, then what is good for?

It will never end.

I had so many dreams, so many plans ...

Where is the end..

Dreams fled. I would like to get it back, but it's impossible. I remain exclusively unfulfilled dreams.

So little I am seen.

Heaven Knows

Shrouded in dust and dislikes, neglected place.

 

 No one's place. Everything is strange.

Work destroys me.

 

Remeber the Urge

Well, for some reason I'm pretty quiet and I don't want to share anything with people. I want to do a lot, but my enthusiasm goes the next day, and then I stand on the cliff.

I filled the blank space up like lacquering black

Where have I started to be out of order?

Imperfect passion.

Much time has passed since I drew. I bury  it under a pile of antique skill of the label 'not needed',
because I can't draw people... and I have a problem with shades. I hope , I have enough perseverance to develop this skill.

This dog name is Sakulla, but it's different from the orginal...

Lost in the word ✞

I'm fuckin' sick. My beautiful mind is full of shit.  I miss for that days, when  I was so determined that nothing else mattered. Where is the way out of this fucking maze.

「Seek for the reason in being able to keep on believing in tomorrow」

#nowplaying;

 the GazettE – 影踏み

Headband

I'm in love with that headband. ♥  I waited for it four week or maybe five, but  it was worth it. I guess I'm spoiled materialistic, oh well.

Pendants.

Another material for jewelry, which I want design.

I love this cross.

Vortex [the GazettE]

'The only thing you really know about me is...
You can't take my soul away from me'

Roses

Sit in a dark room, with a bleeding heart.

Because, my rose absorbs too much energy.

Incense.♥

The smell of incense, good music and hot tea, and white blizzard outside the window.

Swarovski crystal

The materials needed for making my own jewelry. ♥